there is one redeeming quality about the otherwise grueling morning commute: the weather at dawn. it is always beautiful. most days as of late it’s been rain; i love how each raindrop beats so hard on the glass but rolls down so gently, like tears. some days it’s rain and shine, and the golden rays are so much more apparent through sheets of water. then there are days like today, when the sky is a true mystery to me. the clouds are hues of coral and gold and violet, and they blend together in a way that you could never tell where one color begins and the other ends. in a way no brush could ever replicate or lens could capture. in those moments, all the traffic and lights and cars disappear and there is only stillness.

work is stressing me out.

the end.

the broken locks were a warning
you got inside my head
i tried my best to be guarded
im an open book instead

im hanging on another day
just to see what you will throw my way
and im hanging on, to the words you say
you said that i will, will be okay

i’m falling apart
i’m barely breathing
with a broken heart
thats still beating
in the pain there is healing
in your name i find meaning
so im holding on
im barely holding onto you

lifehouse

check!

…at least for now. i finally have a job! even though its temp, i dont care cause its better than what i had (or didnt have) before haha.. and i am loving it. i get to read magazines and look at beautiful design all day. i’ve liked every aspect of it so far except for the drive. LA traffic is hor-ren-dous.

the art center is a beautiful campus. all fresh air and pine trees, and a beautiful view of the san gabriel valley. leading up to the campus are these pretty tree-lined avenues that make me feel like i’m not in california anymore. i love LA and all but sometimes… it’s just nice to be somewhere else.

i can’t believe it’s 2008! 2007 was a good year, and yet, relatively uneventful, besides graduating from college. am definitely hoping 2008 will be better and full of new things. i’m awful at keeping new year’s resolutions, but there are a few things i *hope* to do:

• get a job (omg pleeeease)
• go to the gym at least twice a week (that sounds like a failed resolution already..)
• leave the country (i did NOT do this in 2007. ?!?!?!)
• get paid for a photography job
• simplify my life (got a head start on this by cleaning out my closet this week)
• do more creative projects
• practice my pretty handwriting (so if nothing else, i can do it for a living)
• move out
• (edited to add:) hit up the LA restaurant scene with nancy & sherry!!

for now, i’ll work on #1.. :P